I still love you 

can I reach him? or is he still out of reach? 

I want to know.

from this moment onwards, I will live for myself without thinking of u... 

I need someone who...

1. will say good morning and good night everyday to me

2. non-smoker

3. non-gambler

4. not a heavy drinker 

5. have a stable career

6. have his own 主见

7. love me, dote me and care about me

8. filial to parents

9. height above 1.73

10. humor

11. call me something I love to hear.. but I won't say out.

haizzzzz what should I do so that I can let go of him... srsly give me a cup of 忘情水... 

happy birthday alhq :) hope you like everything I prepared for you...

365 days of happiness <3 爱你

to my carebear <3

morning bear <3 thanks for everything.. I really love you very much for now.... I realized I did not love wrong person... I feel so happy to have known you :) zhen de! thanks for giving me the chance to know you well, can stay by your side, even if its as a friend. I abit content >< (because I still love you very very much) ps: I'm a human only, so I'm greedy too:x so far you're still the best guy I love in my life for now. just a little sad that you're in love with someone else:(I'll still bless for you.. but not fully at the moment now >< looking forward to our first holiday! at this coming fri and sat;) thanks for coming to my side last night, i felt very happy to see you eat the cookies, muffins and macaroons that I made for you.. muackssss... 我真的好爱你... I still hope one day we can be together for now while I'm still in love with you..

i love you <3 

see you soon:) 

当你真正爱上一个人的时候，不管他对你有多么的坏... 你还是会原谅的…

I can't breathe now... how can I overcome this...... why this sort of things always happened between u and me.... I really can't take it anymoreeee...... arghhhhhhhhhh

why my love is so bitter... why always give me hot and cold shoulder... why am I still holding some hope... why I can't just let it go... haiz... why am I soooo stubborn!! why why whyyyyyyyyyy........  I need some peace.... anyone can save me??!!! I want to forget... why i can't just did it?!!!!! I feel so miserable now.... everyone told me to let go.... why is it so hard to do it.....!!! arghhhhhhhhhh... I hate it...

我真的真的真的真的好不开心！！😢😢

to bear

today is the 6th day already.. but still no message from u.. am I insigificant to u? :( haiz.. 

really miss u badly..... :(

to my bear

你是我这一生这一生最最最害怕去伤害到的人

也是我这一生这一生唯一能让我安定下来的人

虽然我并没有并没有并没有一身温纯的灵魂

但是我很愿意很愿意做那个永远照顾的人

我的爱人请听我有颗不善言语的心

只能够看着你远处的背影

should i apps u?... hmmmm.....

想念，除了想念还是想念...

我们好久没有一起去看电影了...

to my bear 11/05/2013... and its 11th~

it been a while ever since the last time i write my blog... guess this place still better than g+... at the least this is my very own world...

this is the 4th day we didn't talk to each other... are you really that busy? why we can't be act like normal... how i wish you are with me tonight... miss you alot.. but i have to control myself.. i was wondering one day can we talk like normal? you are incomparable to me than other friend.. haiz... god... how i wishhhh you could hear this....

am i very silly...?! looks like you will never know....

are we not meant to be together?!
are we really don't have any chance at all?

if this cold war continuesss... will i forget this feel soon....

actually as compare with the me on last year, i still feel very pain... but not that pain till 死去活来的地步.... i do feel that i'm getting stronger now... at least i don't cry that much anymore...

hope that one day... will 苦尽甘来.... hope that one day.... you will understand me....

today i went out with a friend.... i was thinking whether i should contact you... maybe you are at somewhere nearby?... but i don't have the courage to message you... as i feel...we should... or maybe i should let you continue concentrate on your work? but.. why can't you spare a hour for me? my request is it too much for you? haiz... am i that not importance to you? am i just a nobody to you?

i really wanted to 只对你一心一意 only.... at the moment... seriously... nobody but you in my heart now... is this what true love is? when you really 真心爱着那个人... 是不可能轻易的忘掉的吧...

我真的累了... 我到底几时才能到岸呢?....