to my bear 11/05/2013... and its 11th~

it been a while ever since the last time i write my blog... guess this place still better than g+... at the least this is my very own world...

this is the 4th day we didn't talk to each other... are you really that busy? why we can't be act like normal... how i wish you are with me tonight... miss you alot.. but i have to control myself.. i was wondering one day can we talk like normal? you are incomparable to me than other friend.. haiz... god... how i wishhhh you could hear this....

am i very silly...?! looks like you will never know....

are we not meant to be together?!
are we really don't have any chance at all?

if this cold war continuesss... will i forget this feel soon....

actually as compare with the me on last year, i still feel very pain... but not that pain till 死去活来的地步.... i do feel that i'm getting stronger now... at least i don't cry that much anymore...

hope that one day... will 苦尽甘来.... hope that one day.... you will understand me....

today i went out with a friend.... i was thinking whether i should contact you... maybe you are at somewhere nearby?... but i don't have the courage to message you... as i feel...we should... or maybe i should let you continue concentrate on your work? but.. why can't you spare a hour for me? my request is it too much for you? haiz... am i that not importance to you? am i just a nobody to you?

i really wanted to 只对你一心一意 only.... at the moment... seriously... nobody but you in my heart now... is this what true love is? when you really 真心爱着那个人... 是不可能轻易的忘掉的吧...

我真的累了... 我到底几时才能到岸呢?....